How are you?
This may come as a surprise to you but there’s a lot I wish I could have said but never did.
There are many unanswered questions and I guess me, nor the universe will ever know if those answers could have led to something different.
You know I’ve always had a hard time opening up to you, but that’s because I always knew deep down our paths were about to take very different turns. So, opening up would have changed nothing.
You brought out the best of me and yet we both were miserable. Getting away was our only remedy.
When we first met, we tried dating, but I guess it wasn’t what fate had prepared for us. I’ll admit, I know it may seem ridiculous for me to feel this way because we didn’t date for much time, but I was completely heartbroken when you left. Being with you was better than anything I had ever dreamed of and suddenly it was just gone.
I didn’t know how to fix it, yet I wanted it to last.
I never knew I would be able to write to you without shedding a tear but here we are. I guess I learnt how to say goodbye and let go.
We both watched each other hurt and kinda laughed through the pain but our true refuge was elsewhere.
I don’t know if you have found it yet but I hope you do. Good luck in all and thank you for the happiness and acceptance you offered when I so need it.
Your Past x
….Now, where’s my wine?